Hi. I Think I Finally Understood Something.

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Hi.

It’s been a while since I wrote something like this.

Not a motivational post.
Not a “this year taught me…” speech.

Just an observation.

Let me ask you something -

Have you ever felt included…
but slightly replaceable at the same time?

Yeah.

That feeling.

This year(25-26) didn’t test patience.

It revealed patterns.

And once you see a pattern, you can’t unsee it.

The Epiphany

I’ve always been the quiet one.

Not shy.
Not anti-social.
Just not loud for validation.

Since childhood, I was like this.

I wasn’t the kid who needed to be everywhere.
I didn’t build personality around noise.

Maybe I never mastered being gregarious.
Or maybe I just never believed that volume equal values.

I speak when it feels real.
I open up when the vibe makes sense.
I don’t perform personality just to secure a place in a room.

But this year, I noticed something uncomfortable.

People are comfortable with you
as long as you are convenient.

As long as you help.
As long as you agree.
As long as you adjust.
As long as you stay available.

You’re “solid.”
You’re “bro.”
You’re “real.”

But try this once-

Disagree with something illogical that everyone’s laughing at.

Watch the room.

Don’t clap for nonsense.

Notice the shift.

Stop overextending yourself.

Return even 0.1% of the energy you receive.

Now suddenly, you’ve “changed.”
Now you have “attitude.”

Funny how boundaries look like ego
to people who were benefiting from your flexibility.

That’s when it clicked.

Maybe I wasn’t included.

I was convenient.

And convenience feels like connection
until you introduce limits.

And no before u assume -

This isn’t about a breakup.

Nobody cheated. Nobody left.

This is just clarity.

And clarity doesn’t shout.

It just quietly rearranges your understanding of people.

The ‘Cool’ Rulebook

Somewhere along the way, I realised there’s an invisible checklist for being “cool.”

Be loud.
Be trending.
Be entertaining.
Be visible.

Say things like,

“Bro give me her number.”


Laugh loudly - even when the joke is mid.

And if you’re calm?

You’re “boring.”

If you’re selective?

You’re “reserved.”

If you don’t perform?

You’re “uncool.”

Since when did peace become uncool?

I like soft songs. (recently judged) 
I like silence.
I don’t chase trends just to stay relevant.
I don’t update my personality every week.

Individuality looks strange
in rooms that reward imitation.

If that removes me from certain rooms —

I’m okay with that.

Not every room is meant for you.

And not every room deserves you.

About My People

Now before this sounds like I hate everyone -

I do have my people.

They are not the "greenest flagest , the humblest saints either.

The ones who rag me without mercy.


But what something actually matters -

They show up.

No “loyalty” captions.

Just presence.

They might roast you publicly,
but they won’t let anyone disrespect you privately.

And that difference?

That’s rare.

Real ones aren’t perfect.

They’re present.

Closing

So no -

This isn’t anger.

It’s awareness.

I’m not trying to be cool anymore.

I’m trying to be aligned.

If being quiet makes me different, 

fine.
If having boundaries makes me difficult,

 fine.

But tell me-

Is being manageable really the goal?

I don’t think so.

I didn’t lose people this year.

I just stopped auditioning for them.

And honestly?

I’d rather be misunderstood
than be convenient.

Arey bhai! enough ranting ho gyi yeh toh 

anyways

see you soon .


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